Moments and Memories…!!

February 24, 2009

Secret tears scar FOREVER…!!

Filed under: Uncategorized — Mishra @ 05:38
Crying is all I can do now...!!

Crying is all I can do now...!!


Life was good… Rohit, in his 9th class, was farzi as ever…

Sitting on a dinner carpet (yeah…they still have no Dinner table at home…) the family of five- Rohit, two sisters, and parents were discussing how did the day go for everybody.. and laughing along… enjoying moments…

Suddenly Mishra, haan… Rohit wala Mishra, started with saying: “Mummy… aaj pata hai hamare school mein ek teacher se hamari ladai hui… and since he does this awkward act of coming to a school on cycle where even students have got hold of bikes now, some of us, not me ofcourse, punctured his cycle…”

There was no more discussion then on the topic except for his father saying, “Hamare office mein bhi sabhi bikes se aate hain…” and then the topic went dead…
Rohit expected a little more enthusiasm and cold reactions on this from Jiji and Mummy, but no… pindrop silence…!!

Days later.. when Rohit and aunty got those rare moments of being alone on a second saturday… they discussed abt that day… and then suddenly Rohit realised what a mistake he had done.. while saying those words for his teacher he never realised that Uncle, his father, still rides on a cycle to a office where his juniors have graduated to cars…

Don’t know why he immediately prepared to go for a bath.. took his clohes in a haste… opened up a tap.,. and CRIED… cried his heart out. He knew that he has done what he never thought of doing… bringing pains to parents. Perhaps he made them think of the things they are lacking… perhaps he gave them the notion that Uncle going to office on cycle is something which brings shame to him among his friends…

And worst thing.. he couldn’t tell them that he never meant all this…

Years later… when he was in his 12th… they had a bike in the family… Rohit grabbed his cloths in a haste.. went for a bath… opened up a tap.. and CRIED…!!!



  1. Hi Rohit…
    The posts in your blog are definitely don’t depict the person we know you are. Though this was all quite evident in your poems and your status messages.
    I don’t know how many times we have caused pain to our parents. I myself am guilty of doing such things and then repenting over them for along period of time. But, what you did was something you did in innocence. I have no doubt that your parents understand it too. Please don’t feel guilty about it anymore.
    Some things are hard to forget and leave a lasting influence on our lives and maybe change them forever. We all have them buried deep inside our hearts but can’t muster the courage to share them with others.
    I hope your post serves as a valuable lesson for all those who read it.I wish it would bring more respect and love for our parents and family.

    Comment by Aviral — February 24, 2009 @ 06:29 | Reply

  2. @aviral and the samant..
    forgetting is not easy… and thats why this blog…
    and as per the understandin of parents is concerned… they are best in this field, and this brings in even more guilty feelings…

    anyways… lighter stuff will follow.. the time is not now… as i said, these are long buried plans, all those things i wanted to write will get their place here first…
    and then, the lighter part will have its place..

    btw, thanx for reading…

    Comment by Mishra — February 25, 2009 @ 08:53 | Reply

  3. hey rohit! now dis is very very unexpected of you. not what you’ve written in ur blog but rather that YOU’re writing such a blog. 😦

    i’ll say take it easy buddy! dese things happen. sometimes u rralise them sometimes u don’t. they’re just meant 2 b 4gotten. let ’em go! u love ur parents n they love u back. dats wats imp. these small things dnt matter.

    the best way 2 deal wid them is 2 jus let em go!


    write some lighter stuff dude. else it’ll get hard 2 comment! 😉

    Comment by chetnasamant — February 25, 2009 @ 07:30 | Reply

  4. Hmmm… Aviral has put it very well, I’d say… You took me back to the day when a very rich friend of mine had come for lunch to my place (I must have been in 10th standard then) and my mother had made halwa for him. When he and I sat eating, he said – oh, we eat halwa everyday at home. And I actually told my mother after he left that his family eats halwa everyday for lunch, this was nothing fascinating for him. And how my mother had cried… That incident never leaves me.

    We all hurt our parents while we grow up, just like our children will hurt us… That’s the cycle of life that we can do little to change.

    By the way, your friends seem quite surprised by the stuff you write here. I guess I don’t know you too well then but I always thought you capable of writing such stuff… Good Going Ro! Keep writing! And Happy Writing! [Pun intended]

    Comment by Gazal — February 26, 2009 @ 00:59 | Reply

  5. @GAZAL: hmmm… point taken… but m also not asking for those moments to com back… jst that this incidence never leaves ME…
    the thing is that i had this maturity of understanding that what i did was wrong… i just wish i were as dumb as i am now…!!

    Comment by Mishra — February 27, 2009 @ 05:23 | Reply

  6. We all have ghosts in our closets, some of us just prefer to keep them locked up 😦

    Comment by Mayuri — March 1, 2009 @ 10:35 | Reply

  7. Till now..i was thinking…Memory is..holding onto things we love…things we care for…n things..that we nvr wanna lose.
    wenever i rumage the bag of past and search for memories..i alws take out nice n happy ones (may be knowingly)..
    it may be because i hv very few memories that i can group in d basket of sad memories..or may be because i dont want to remember anything bad that has happened to me in past…m bit confused 😦

    But now i must confess u made me remember some stuffs that i never wanted to retrive.I wont say those are scars…but yes..they do bring tears

    Why do parents forgive n forget so easily ??

    Comment by aliva — March 23, 2009 @ 17:01 | Reply

  8. Why do parents forgive n forget so easily ??

    huh… i just hope i learn the art in time… nice words vaise..

    Comment by Mishra — March 23, 2009 @ 18:31 | Reply

  9. I guess we all do this stupidity of hurting our parents by doing this in one or the other manner. It has happened a lot with me actually. In Mishra’s case, at least he had a talk with his mother. But I have never been able to discuss this with anyone and this guilt always remain in his/her heart. Just as Aliva has written here, why do parents forgive and forget so easily…

    Comment by Ekam — May 16, 2009 @ 19:05 | Reply

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