Moments and Memories…!!

May 8, 2009

DAMN… I LOVE U…!!

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>>Before u get into reading this, please read I WON’T LOVE AGAIN post…. This is a sequel to it…

Even if u have read it, go thru it once… pleeeeez….!!

DAMN.... I love U

“I love u Dhara…”

“kab se DD… I am committed… for 2 yrs now…”

“DD, promise u will be ther always… promise that u will help me…”

“I will, I PROMISE…!!”

A lot of promises were made… but none of them… none… were kept. A lot of believes shattered. Dhara feels like witnessing this conversation with DD everyday… and everyday she is lost.

She checks the calendar-11th June- huh, HER birthday… She always had troubles remembering birthdays. Every year on their b’day, DD never failed to call her up at the stroke of 12… He used to call her, then wait for Dhara to wish him first and replied saying “same to u dhara…”

Every year the first wish for Dhara came in this way:  “same to u”… a rare thing to hear on your birthday… but this happened every year… every year till two years back…

Thoughts flew back to school days. The first time when Dhara met DD, something told her that this thing between them, their friendship, is gonna last long- really long. DD never spared a chance to irritate her. She although showed that she has lost it again to DD and she is irritated, she loved THE DD’s ways of making her feel special. They always ended up fighting and patching up the next day only to fight again. If she didn’t see him for even a day, then it was not a day worth remembering.

They grew up together…

Dhara knew that DD will never be serious in his life… actually, he can never be… Moreover it didn’t suit him… he looked good only with a smile.

But the day when he said he loves her, DD was serious…Dhara knew it wasn’t a joke… that for the first time in his life perhaps, DD was serious…

She had no other option but to tell him that she was committed… how she was proposed and how she said YES…!!

Since then, there were no calls from DD… three years and 2 birthdays gone and not a single call from him…

She didn’t even know where he is now…

The boy who proposed her also left, without giving any reasons… ahh..!! thank god I had reasons to say NO to DD… And with him were gone all the promises whish he had made. That was the time when she wanted DD’s presence the most… but he wasn’t there…

She was alone…

TIME FLEW FOR HER… NO PROMISES WERE KEPT…!!

He got up… and replayed the same paragraph of the same song… for the nth time today…

Muskuraun Kabhee To Lagataa Hai
Jaise Hothhon Pe, Karz Rakhaa Hai…

Tujhse naraaz nahin zindagi, Hairaan hun mein…

and he  smiled again… for the nth time… today, on his b’day….

Well, job was fun… an all together new experience but nothing less than the fun of sitting idle in hostel for hours. He was the most sought after companion to have for lunch time- all thanks to his instantaneous jokes and spontaneity to react foolishly to any situation… He smiled a little and made everybody laugh… the same daily dose of humor was still intact.…


His dressup would never go with the kind of personality he is….

Today was no exception…

Dressed in suit, looking like gentleman, he looked exactly opposite the way he actually is. A smile on his face, hair not combed properly… and with a red rose tucked to his pocket, he was the talk of the office… today, on his birthday…

There was a grand party for the office colleagues… host was DD and the reasons were double fold… one of them being his birthday…

Smiling and happy faces all around… it was virtually an off day…

But, among all these smiles, among all his friends, he was still searching for a special wish… he was missing Dhara…

DD wondered if she even remembers it is her birthday today… Dhara was bad at remembering birthdays…

He was missing her… today, on their birthday…

Haah…!!! the same memories… the same joyful moments of togetherness… the same painful last two years… the same never ending wait for a response….

All started to come to him in flashes… again…

Since the D-day, life was never same for DD…

Everything looked deserted…

The only thing he wanted from life… for life… was not his, and the rest mattered least.

Whenever something good happened to him, he so craved that she was around…

Whenever something bad happened, he wanted her all the more…

But she wasn’t there…

He was alone…

Every night he expected dhara’s call… there was none.

Every hour he tried her… no replies.

He had to quit…

He knew that Dhara feels he was not the kind of guy she would like to spend her life with, and he feared that she will never know the truth…!!

TIME FLEW FOR HIM… HE LEARNT TO LET GO…!!

The long-long day was over… DD wanted some moments in isolation… public gatherings still irked him…

The party was good… and celebrations for the day were over… A lot of surprises made this day an unforgettable one…
Walking along the pavement, he was noticing every face that he came across. Every face had its story…

A kid screaming just coz he was denied another sip of cold drink… A couple standing in the deserted corner, girl crying and boy with stern looks… A lady, 50 something, walking alone and murmuring to herself… a beggar, an astrologer, another girl having golgappe… the pavement was full of faces tonight, each with a story… everyone seemed to have one… or at least he could make one from each one of them.

Wait… the voice was heard before… the voice of the girl having golgappe-

He moved towards her… long hair…

He moved closer… fair complexion

He inched closer  and… oh my god…!!

“DHARA…!!” he exclaimed

It was hard for the girl to look at DD’s face coz of the glare of the lights from behind… but that was not necessary… she recognized the voice…

MY GOD…!! Dhara… its u… of all the people in this world, its u…

HI…!!”

“Hey DD… hello”

“kaisi hai yaar…” he was breathing hard…

“mein bahut achi hun… tu bata…”

“yahan kya… matlab Hyderabad mein kyun… matlab kya kar rahi hai yahan… matlab tu to shayad delhi mien thi na…” words were not coming out properly… DD just hoped that they made perfect sense…

“Mein to yahan kisi project ke kaam se aayi hun… abbey, main Radio Mirchi mein RJ hoon… Delhi mein… tu yahan kaise…”

“Bhool gayi, arey mein to yahi kaam karta hun… Deloitte…”

“Jaise tune mujhe bataya tha… remember the last time we talked… its over 2 years now…”

“2 years, 3 months and 2 days to be exact…”

A silence followed… very unlikely of them… it continued for long… very long…

Dhara broke it…

Dhara: by the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY…

DD: aah…:)… same to u yaar

And here was the first wish of the day for her… coming again from DD…

DD: chal chalte-chalte baat karte hain…

till when are u here in Hyderabad..??

Dhara: Not long, perhaps 2 more days… but it won’t be possible to meet u, will be very busy…

DD: 😛 I didn’t ask u to meet me… still try if u can take out time??

Dhara: DD, tu badla nahin yaar… the same way of saying things u want as if I want them to get done…

DD: pata hai…

Ye bata, wo banda kaisa hai… jisne tujhe propose kiya tha…

Dhara smiled… she had no answer to this… the boy was long gone… she didn’t even know where he is now…

DD too got the answer… he knew how and when to stop asking questions… As always, Dhara never had to say everything… yet everything was understood.

DD: hmm… rehne de… samajh gaya… ye bata, tu theek hai na… mein us gadhe ke bharose tere ko chhod ke gaya tha aur wo bhaag gaya…. GADHA…!!

Dhara: hmm…

DD, do I need to tell u that I missed u… all these days… U never answered my calls DD… no messages… kyun?? just coz, u thought that boy was there…??

Ohhk… must be network problem then… she too tried… it wasn’t that bad atleast…

DD: chhod un baaton ko… ye bata, hw was today…

Dhara: huh… can’t say. Till 30 mins ago, it was the worst b’day of my life… but now it is the most cherished…

DD: hey Dhara, u talk like an RJ… u know how to flatter…

Dhara: how was yours…?

DD: Great… you were the surprise of the day… a lot of surprises today… u were best among them…

Dhara: surprises like..??

DD:  like this one from my family… I AM MARRYING…!!

Dhara: WHAT..!!! girl of ur choice…??

DD: nah… arranged…

Dhara: tu arranged maariage kar raha hai.. u always had dreams of love marriage…

It must be coz of her that DD has agreed to this arranged marriage…

DD: I WILL LEARN TO LOVE HER…

She was supposed to be happy… she wanted to be, but she wasn’t…

The guilt increased many folds…

He will LEARN to love her…!!

Can I now tell him that I LOVE him…Now I realize ki of all the things in this world that ever mattered to me, I need him by my side most of all, can I NOW tell him this. Will that make any sense to him… will that change anything now…

And why, now, suddenly when he is getting married, sharing the best moments of his after D-Day life, why does it feel like a loss to me… Did I ever ‘not-loved’ him…

I love him… I surely do…

Oh god…y did we meet…!!

“tune baat ki usse kabhi… jaanta hai…”

DD: hmm, ek baar baat ki thi… achi bandi hai… u will like her…

Dhara: DD, its a great feeling for a girl to get proposed… to know that there is atleast someone who feels for her… who loves her truly… understands and appreciates her… and will continue to believe in her forever…

Before u marry her, ek baar propose karna, she will feel special…

DD: 🙂 yaar, pata hai these are the reasons why I missed u all these days… tere suggestions nahin ho to mera kya ho… will surely do that… and will tell ya…

Vaise, you are coming to the wedding… Agra mein hi hai… 29th ko, this month….

Aayegi na… kitna bhi busy ho, please aana… I want her to know each and every person who made this life worth living… I want u two to meet…

Dhara: ofcourse… pakka mein rahungi agra mein aur tere se contact karungi… tu mere ko pick karne aa jaayega na apni shaadi ke din… 🙂

DD:  koi shak… tu apna naya contact number de…

And the conversation continued for few more hours…

I LOVE YOU...!!

Dhara left Hyderabad the very same day…. Some jobs were still incomplete… but then they didn’t matter much…

TIME FLEW FOR DD and DHARA… LIVES WERE TO CHANGE….!!

28TH JUNE:

Dhara on a call: Mummy, m NOT coming to Agra tomorrow…

.

.

.

Haan, tomorrow is still a holiday but I have to pay for some delays I had made earlier… I have to stay mummy…

.

.

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Haan, sure…  I will… Bye…

29th JUNE:

Her cell kept on ringing…. 17 miss calls…

She left it that ways….

And it started to ring again…


He had been trying her for over 4 hours now… the contact number was wrong perhaps… huh…!! So the only way of talking to her was lost…

He couldn’t do anything…

He had to quit…


HE took vows for the life ahead…

SHE cried for the loss…

LIVES CHANGED FOREVER…!!!


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21 Comments »

  1. There were infinite thoughts, infinite emotions I wanted to portray through DD-Dhara duo… but there was always this feeling that I might not end up doing full judgement to the pious nature of the relationship that existed between them…
    HOPE I HAVE DONE WELL…!!
    There was always a problem in portraying the end, and for this a special thanks to Suman for a forward which she mailed me…
    And also, a sicere bow to Kajal for lying awake till 3:30 AM to review this text… and approving it…!!

    Comment by Mishra — May 8, 2009 @ 10:33 | Reply

  2. YOU HAVE DONE WELL .
    This was one story which I never wanted to end.If its a true story, I want them to meet again and if it is fiction , I want to know the next part . What’s going to happen if they both meet after some years of their respective marriages , just like they met all of a sudden in Hyderabad .What will they talk , how will they meet..Is he still married , is she married or not… Haha I want to know future 😀
    I really liked the story very much .
    Really you write very well. God bless you 🙂

    Comment by Ekam — May 8, 2009 @ 18:17 | Reply

  3. Hi Rohit,
    Very well written. I dint loose interest even once in the story. I was never in favor of a sequel to this story. But as u said “badi mehnat se likha hai”. And your mehnat completely proved me wrong that the sequel cud not be as good. In fact I wud admit that i liked the sequel more than i did the 1st part. And this pic selection was amazing. The guy resemebles u sooooooo much.

    @Ekam
    Hey!!
    Have you seen the movie “kabhi-kabhi” feauturing Amitabh bachan and rakhi. Few of your questions reminded me of that movie. Esp the one in which u are curious to kno wat will DD and dhara discuss if they meet after some years of their marriage. In the movie the scene when amitabh and rakhi meet in their old age is the most beautiful scene. The way they start talking about their lives and then the ultimate question “tum khush ho?” is put. But I think Rohit has already given us the ‘next part’ to a story which was already complete in itself. And yet dis next part in itself is very beautiful and perfect. If we’ll keep forcing him for the sequels like this, this blog would soon tur out to be a DD-Dhara blog. Hope u agree 🙂

    Once again, very well written rohit. 🙂
    Keep posting

    Comment by Priyanka — May 8, 2009 @ 18:44 | Reply

  4. very well written…
    sometimes life dosent offer us second chances 🙂

    per galat baat hain yaar..dhara ne use wish tak nahi kiya..how selfish?!!
    agar wish nahi karna tha toh hyd mulakat ke wakt toh congratulations wish karti 😦
    they were friends right? friendship comes before love!!

    Comment by pri — May 8, 2009 @ 19:33 | Reply

  5. @EKAM:
    thanks yaara…
    and as per the question regarding future is concerned, if u have gone thru the comments of “I WONT LOVE AGAIN”, u will know that i cannot promise anything…
    nobody can predict the future… and i will prefer not to be ‘THE ONE’… will keep myself from predicting anything…
    but again, u never know…

    Comment by Mishra — May 8, 2009 @ 21:09 | Reply

  6. @jiji:
    thanks for commenting and encouragement…
    words like “keep posting” from u do mean a lot…
    thanks for answering to Ekams queries…
    i promise that this blog at no moment will turn into a DD-Dhara book, it is meant to be my reflection.. and it wil serve the purpose…

    🙂

    Comment by Mishra — May 8, 2009 @ 21:13 | Reply

  7. @Pri:
    hey yaara, sometimes life doesn’t offer us second chances…. very true…!!
    Sometimes life is little more than just living for urself…

    aur before the hyd day got over, there is a line written… “and the conversation continued for few more hours…” I believe that Dhara ne wish kar diya hoga DD ko us waqt.. pakka…

    jahan tak shaadi wale din ki baat hai, had shew picked up the call… just imagine the conversation that would have taken place… Koi na Koi gussa zaroor hota… ya dukhi shayad. Kisi na kisi ko bura zaroor lagta..
    ab atleast whenever they meet in future she can try to be normal with him by lying…

    I believe ki Dhara ne sahi kiya…

    (vaise, its also called ‘justifying whatever u hav written’)

    Comment by Mishra — May 8, 2009 @ 21:33 | Reply

  8. Hi Rohit,

    Very well written and I must say very practically written. Because in real life things turn like this..

    But as you know we all believe in some type of miracles …So I expected some last moment twist and turns for a happy ending .But seriously it happens very rarely in real life. It feels bad to know that even though love and understanding was so great between Dhara and DD ,still they couldn’t turn the things to their side..I wish they could have …

    Right now I am quite habituated to expect masterpieces from you and I am glad that I nvr get disappointed.Hats off to You..and I am still expecting some miracles ..even if Dhara and DD couldn’t be able to take their relationship one step further ..hope they will be able to have the wonderful friendship they had all these years 🙂

    Thanks a lot for this wonderful thing 🙂
    God Bless You..Keep Writing as well as sharing 🙂

    Comment by Ani — May 8, 2009 @ 23:58 | Reply

  9. niccceeee!! liked it… good dat DD got back at Dhara! 😀

    Comment by chetnasamant — May 11, 2009 @ 20:09 | Reply

  10. oye full story hai!
    sahi mein lambi kahani, par achchi hai.. u shud take up short stories… and the story seems so real,makes me say again – life’s not fair 🙂

    Comment by Mayuri — May 11, 2009 @ 22:52 | Reply

  11. did any1 think abt the other gl in this story?

    DD is going to get married…arranged marriage it is…

    n DD says…i will LEARN to love her..

    haah…is it all fair ? He will LEARN to love her… oh ya !

    One more question…i jst want to know that b4 the wedding ..whether DD has told the gl that he had been in love before ?

    n to comment on Rohit’s writing skill…well…i know he writes well…n the secret is he has a nice pen in his pocket 😉
    jokes apart..bt yup…achha likha hei yaar tune 🙂

    Comment by chinky — May 11, 2009 @ 23:51 | Reply

  12. rohit…
    well written…but the girl dd is going to marry needs to be proposed not because dhara told dd…but because dd loves her…n if he hasn’t yet started loving her…then the one person who will be suffering the most in this story will be her..n knowing how dd is…he will suffer a lot too thus!…

    Comment by bhawna — May 17, 2009 @ 07:51 | Reply

  13. @samant and Mayuri…
    glad that u read it.. thanks…!!

    Comment by Mishra — May 17, 2009 @ 12:37 | Reply

  14. @bhawna and Chinky: when Dhara asks DD to propose the gal, she wanted him to fall in love again…
    DD wont love again… he cannot… if u havent read, DD in an interview said “hum ek hi baar jeete hain. ekhi baar marte hain, aur pyaar bhi ek hi baar hota hai…”
    all he can think of at this moment to make life beautiful for himself and for the girl he is marrying is to try to love her…
    and that’s what Dhara told him to do…

    kaha na, Dhara and DD think alike… xtreme levels of understanding…

    Comment by Mishra — May 17, 2009 @ 12:38 | Reply

  15. bhai story to achhi hai…lekin aisi wali mat likha kar kiski happy ending nahi hoti…aur bhagwan na kare ki kisi k sath ye sab sach me ho… kuchh bhiment ho dono ko milna jarur chahiye…waise kisi na kisi ko to adjust karna hi padta hai…kuchh friends aise hote hi hain jo apne friends k liye hamesha kuchh bhi karne k liye ready rahte hain unko khush rakhne k liye…aur most prob jahan tak main imagine karun 29th ko DD ki marriage hui nahi hogi… ll see later that what was happened between them… DD ll do something for Dhara for his best friend…

    Comment by vikash bansal — May 25, 2009 @ 18:38 | Reply

  16. i know thats the real life,i mean reality of once life.
    but everyone likes the happy ending.so you must have to continue the
    story in favour of dhara

    Comment by neeta — March 12, 2010 @ 18:45 | Reply

  17. I AM TOTALLY AGAINST ARRANGED MARRIAGE…….I HATE IT IN FACT

    Comment by Tracy — May 7, 2010 @ 15:25 | Reply

  18. lovely story…… but hell i want to read all of it yaar…. want to know the unknown part of it

    Comment by Rahul — May 18, 2010 @ 16:52 | Reply

  19. Hey Rohit,

    very interesting story. keep posted

    Comment by Lokesh Kataria — June 20, 2010 @ 02:05 | Reply

  20. really it happens…god leaves us nothing…hope megha(my only love) comes to me… before i die… i’ll wait for you my angel… i love you a lot… please be mine… miss you……………..

    Comment by imran — September 5, 2010 @ 11:54 | Reply


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